Boop.

AHHHHHH!!!!

2010-06-15T21:48:00.000-07:00

I've been out of school for like 3 weeks now and life is still SUUUUPPPPPEEEERRRRRRRR BORING!!!!!!

Boyfriend is closing tonight, so I'm very bored and lonely hanging at a friends house, watching a roomie play video games.

Hanging out with Connor and Shelby. We've walked to the gas station about seven times already.

Hmmmm what else is there?

Oh yeah...

Fucking dick-faced son-of-a-bitch messed up my car. Smashed the passenger side headlight and ripped off both windsheild wipers and keyed the driver's side door.

Asshole.

My whole drug case is still pending.

I meet with a lawyer on the 30th.

Yay.........

One night in Jail.

2010-03-22T08:55:00.001-07:00

So the other night, Saturday night actually, I snuck out with my boyfriend. We were driving through Marion at about midnight, and a cop pulled us over in his driveway. (No joke...he waited for us to pull over somewhere.) He told us that the registration was out of date and Chris didn't have a license so the cop said he was just gonna take him down for the station and he would be out of there in 10-30 minutes.

Everything was just fine before dick head showed up. Although I wasn't the one driving, he searched me and found my weed and my pipe in my pocket. He fucking man-handled me and shoved me against the car and cuffed me, and then pushed me into the backseat of the car. They searched the car for about ten minutes but didn't find anything else. We waited in Chris's driveway for half an hour before the nice cop took us to the station.

I was shaking from the cold and my fear. A million thoughts popped in my head at once. "I hope my mom doesn't find out." "My mom is gonna beat my ass." "I'm going to be raped in jail." "My life is over." The nice cop saw me shaking and asked me if I was cold. I told him I was and he turned up the heat for me. He was a really nice guy.

It was really stupid though, the only reason why they checked me is because they allllllll know Chris, cuz he had been caught with weed before, so basically, it was profiling.

We got to the station and ten minutes later they told Chris he could go. I was stuck behind. The lady gave me a strip-search (Most awkward thing ever) and took my clothes and gave me the oh-so-beautiful tealy-green jump-suit. Thank god it wasn't orange...I hate that color.

She asked me questions and made me fill out a few sheets, and then printed me. I was still shaking so she asked me if I smoked that day. I replied "yes" and then she asked me if I did any other illegal substances. I told her "No, just weed." She said that I didn't have to lie, because it wasn't like she was gonna arrest me for it. I just told her that THC was the only thing in my system.

She was also very nice. I asked her questions like, what happens with court and what time it was and if I got a phone call. She answered them all directly.

Half-an-hour later, she gave me a blanket and took me to the fish bowl. There were two women. One sitting in the far corner in the bottom bunk, the other, drunk, laying down in the other bottom bunk, shaking and saying "ishmninm cold, blaughfoor, freezing." I decided to take the bunk above the sitting chick. After 5 minutes, she asked me what time it was. I told her around 1:30 or 2:00. I then asked her what she was in for. She told me that the cops got her for interfering with official acts and public intox. She had been in there since 7pm. Let me tell you, this women was NOT drunk. NOT under any influence. NOT a bad person. Eventually the other woman woke up and started yelling because she said that the cops arrested her on her front door step and she had a .4 alcohol level. She was completely wasted, yet what did they get her for? Interfering with official acts. Nothing about public intox. Just interfering.

We all talked about how much it sucked being in jail. We asked eachother questions about whats gonna happen but none of us were certain. I then walked over to the phone and called Connor, because I realized I didn't know Chris's new number. Connor answered and I told him I was in jail. I asked him to call Corbin and get Chris's number. He told me he didn't have Corbin's number, so I told him to call Katie. I guess Katie was freaking out and she was worried about me. Connor told her I was fine and that no one was gonna rape me. She also didn't know Chris's new number, so she gave Corbin's number to Connor. Connor then called Corbin and gave Chris's new number. I called Connor, and thanks to my amazing memory, I was able to memorize his number on the first try. I called him, and when I heard his voice, I started bawling. He told me everything was gonna be fine and that he called Ben and told him I wasn't gonna be able to work tomorrow. He told me he was gonna go to my court hearing, and then take me to his house.

I decided I wanted to sleep, so I took my blanket and formed a pillow. I wasn't that cold yet, but I swear to god, it was like a freakin time warp. I slept for what it felt like 4 hours, but it was only 30 minutes. I called Chris and told him I couldn't sleep. I then decided to call my mom. I told her that my sister picked me up and I speant the night there. I just wanted to hear my mom's voice, but I didn't want her to know.

I then went back to bed and slept for about another hour, when a female cop came in and brought breakfast. It was 5am. I was NOT gonna eat jail food.

Then about an hour later, a cop came back with a piece of paper saying, "Miss Byrne, here is the form for a public defender. Unless you have another lawyer, or want to pay for one, we'll provide one for you." I filled out the sheet with a stupid bendy pen (used to make sure you can't stab the officers with them) and shoved it under the door.

What I was doing till court I don't really remember, but I was second on the roster. The guy before me was named Mr. Burns (weird.) and he beat up some guy named Chris (ironic) and was released but couldn't contact the dude he beat the living fuck out of.

It was my turn.

The judge told me it would take a minute.

I was nervous.

"Breathe." I told myself.

"Kerina DeAndre Byrne, you are charged with Possession of an illegal substance and drug paraphenilia. I am releasing you on the grounds that you take a Substance Control Evaluation. We will review your request for a public defender, and your court date is April 9th."

"Thank you." I told her.

I was walking out and I tripped on my shackles. There was a room full of guys with felonies, and they were EXTREMELY CREEPY.

I was taken back to my cell.

I'll finish this story later.

HaPpY BiRtHdAy Mr. AyErS!!!!!

2009-11-13T21:13:00.000-08:00

We share the same birthday!!!! YAYYYY
And good news to you on your birthday.
MY COMPUTER IS BACK!!!
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!
Hope you have fun turning into an old guy :P

Christ on a Cracker

2009-10-16T09:58:00.000-07:00

Sooooo my stupid computer crashed, so this blog is being typed up in the PLATO room.
I passed so Ms. Dobbin is cool with me using this.

YAY

So yeah thats the 411.

YAAAAYYYYYY!

2009-10-09T11:01:00.000-07:00

Sooooooooooo!!!!!!!
I'm in 4th hour writing this blog.
I have Plato this hour so I could recover my grade in Algebra 2 and guess what?????
I'M DONE!!!!!!
I now can get a 4th hour release, which means I CAN CAUSE HELL!!!!!!
lol jk
So yeah.

That's pretty much it.

(SEE MR. AYERS? I'M BLOGGING!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

I better get an A in your class....despite the fact I'm not even in it.

...Sigh....

oops

2009-10-03T21:15:00.000-07:00

Sooooo i have not kept my promise of writing. but i saw mr. Ayers the other day and he asked me about my blogging and i was like FUCK! so this is a short entry because i'm on the celly but i promise to start blogging again :]

Memories

2009-05-28T06:01:00.000-07:00

Yeah I know that the blogging thing is pretty much done with, well for the grading part at least.

But I want to reflect on my years as a student here.

Freshman Year: Walking in, scared shittless, I honestly thought I was gonna die by the end of the week.

Middle of the year: I skipped Singers with my at the time best friend Brittney Neese, and Stecker caught us, and we got a detention...My mom only grounded me for 2 days, cuz I was honest.

End of the year: My best friend was moving to Alabama. We went to Adventure Land. Then I had to go to St. Louis with my church. It was the last time I ever saw her....

Sophomore year: I didn't have a lot of friends cuz I never traveled outside of my normal group, but Before school started I went to Anime Iowa with Nick Wood, Ryan Meyer, and Josh Winkie, so I kinda got lumped in with them. I became best friends with Nick's girlfriend, Shelbie, and we were inseperable.

Middle of the year: Got grounded for not cleaning my room. I made alot of new friends. Nothing really happened.

End of the year: Met Connor, fell head over heels. Pretty much dropped my friends for him.

Junior Year: Was dating Connor. People hadn't seen me all summer, so I kinda dropped off the face of the planet. Oh and I had a job.

Middle of the year: Failed alot of my classes. Broke up with Connor. Hit depression. Yeah.

End of the year: Lost one of my friends, cuz we are both stubborn. Seniors are gone. And I'm sad. Still have a job.

So thats my highschool experience so far.

Yeahhhhhhh

sigh

2009-05-25T21:52:00.000-07:00

i miss it. i miss my childhood. i'm gonna be 18 in a few months and the years have just flown by. i miss riding my bike to school. i miss hanging out with shelby every waking moment. i miss not caring about what people thought. i miss not being a failure

OMG ITS ESTHER!

2009-05-24T20:48:00.000-07:00

So I'm gonna start my own youtube channel called "OMGITSESTHER!"
I'm not gonna post anything yet
And I shalln't tell you about it so you're just gonna have to find out for yourselves.

YEAH!

Another Blog about blogging

2009-05-24T20:02:00.000-07:00

GOD MR AYERS WHY MUST WE BLOG ON THIS TOPIC!!!!!
ERUGGHHHHH!!!
I HATE BLOGGING!
ITS THE WORST THING I'VE EVER HAD TO DO FOR A CLASS!!!!!!

I'm kidddddding

lol

So please Mr. Ayers, don't just read the first part of that.

I don't wanna risk my grade for being a good actress....on a computer.......where anything you say can be taken in a whole new way.....

Crap....there goes my grade....

ANYWHOOOOOO

Lets talk about what I came here to talk about in the first place.

duh-duh-duh-
DUH-DUH!!!!!!

BLOGGING!!!!!

So pretty much this term I've mostly blogged about my life problems....cuz there was more.

My fellow classmates/table mates called my blog a gossip collumn.

But it wasn't really gossip.

It was my stupid teenage angst.

ERUGH

Hold on.

Got like 3 new text messages.

JEESH!

WHY MUST PEOPLE INTERRUPT!???

Ok so that was pretty much a waste.

One dude told me he was no longer a highschool student.

A dude I don't even like but my stupid cousin gave him my number.

errrrr.....

and then some stupid forward message about how my love will supposedly tell me he wants my body in a duffle bag or something...

AHHH

DISTRACTIONS!!!!

Back to business.

So blogging this term....

GOD DAMMIT!!!!

ANOTHER TEXT!!!!!!! >.<

-_-

Lydia.....
telling me to keep off her man.

AHHHH I HAVE A MAN! GET OFF MY DICK ALREADY WHORE

AHHHH ANOTHER MESSAGE!!!!!!!

I'd turn off my phone but then I would feel as if a part of me were missing.

SO NO MORE DISTRACTIONS!!!!

So Blogging:

It's awesome.

It's fun.

It's arguably the best assignment/easiest assignment I've ever had.

It's a great way to talk about random stuff that goes on.

I mean I know that not many people read it....hell I only know of two people and one's Mr. Ayers so technically he doesn't count cuz its his job :P (Not to make you feel inferior, Mr. Ayers but lets be honest YOU ARE FORCED TO READ THIS!!! But you enjoy it which is probably why I haven't failed this portion of the grade lol)

But seriously, I never really thought about blogging. I mean, I had a Xanga when I was younger but it was totally different. At the time it was pretty much talk about nothing, have weird music, and post alot of pictures.

Ok Ok Ok I know it sounds just like this blog, but I'm actually putting my heart and effort into this.

I mean, I am leaving out NO details on this so this is pretty much straight up my POV.

I know it may be wrong, but opinions are never wrong.

My blog does seem like a trash talking blog but really its just how I see the world.

I admit.

I can be a bitch.

And I cuss alot.

(FUCK THE CENSORS! I'M BLOGGING FROM HOME!)

But I've really opened up this year.

As I've said in the last blog about blogging, I love to look back at the crazy stuff I've written.

It makes me see what kind of person I really am.....

Which is a crazy one.

I should probably be committed.

Lol

But it has also shown me that writing is something I should probably do something with in the future.

Like write a novel about man eating robots on Jupiter that want to find the long lost space kitten....or something......

So yeah.

Pretty much blogging is amazing.

And Although this year is over and the blogging will no longer be required I'm still gonna post frequently....depending on how bored I am.

This to me isn't really for a grade.

It's a cool hobby.

And thats pretty much it.

KERINA OVER AND OUT!

AHHHH TEXT MESSAGE!!!!!

2009-05-18T20:37:00.000-07:00

so connor and i are making a movie based on elizabeth bathory, who was this hungarian countess who bathed in the blood of virgins cuz she thought it fought age. its gonna be awesome

Prom

2009-05-16T09:18:00.000-07:00

So yes I am going to prom.
And to be honest I really don't want to go.
It's not that I don't like my date or anything,
I just hate dressing up.
I'm more of the staying at home and sleeping for hours type sort of person.
And I don't like school dances.
The whole grinding thing makes me throw up inside.
I was in dance (Ballet and Spirits--which is kinda like cheerleading/dance team and we performed at baseball games and fairs) for 7 years and I just don't like dancing at dances cuz my skills have enabled me to dance like everyone else.

I also don't like dancing like a whore.

Yeah I'm being cocky but hey, when you are taught the 'proper form' in the early years of life you pretty much are screwed.

I started dance when I was in Kindergarten (we moved from Atkins cuz my mom no longer had to go through Chemo, and I didn't have to live with my relatives in Walker anymore and I was gonna start school so yeah.....) and my dance instructer was a teacher at my school. She was talking to my mom and told me about the Dance of Iowa and how she taught the beginner class for little kids.

So my mom jumped on the opportunity.
I remember when I said I wanted to be Kerina the Ballerina
But not gonna lie, I was really embarrased and didn't talk to my mom for a few days.
I mean come on, I'm Irish, of course I'm stubborn.
But the first class I was in I immediately fell in love.
I wanted to do tap but in order to do tap I had to be enrolled in 3 classes at once: Ballet, Jazz, and then Tap.
So I did Ballet and Jazz for a year.
That was fun.
But after 4 years I kinda got tired of dancing, because I never learned anything new.
And my step-sister was supposed to join my class but instead she joined spirits.
So my last year at the Dance of Iowa I skipped the classes alot, but when time came to the performance, I had the routine down flat.
Then I told my mom I wanted to join spirits.

So I did.

Easy.
As.
Pie.

My sister hated me because I immediately took to the class, and our teachers even told our parents how good I was, if only I smiled.
They told them I should be in the Junior class, but I was only 10 so I had to wait.

After 3 years of hearing Tiffany (the owner) bitch about how some girls didn't punch their arms right, and how she isn't "Teaching us for her health" (yeah...for the money) I got sick of it and quit.

Never joined a dance class again.

But looking back I wish I stayed in dance.

I mean, dance got me through a lot of things.
My grandpa's death.
My mom's divorce to her stupid ex husband who cheated on her after my granpa died.

If I hadn't have waited for my sister to join ballet, (I stayed behind a year just for her) I would've been in the advance class.

So pretty much I'm a washed up dancer who actually loves to dance, but hates the school dances.

Girl brains.

Confusing.

NEW BLOG!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-14T06:41:00.001-07:00

it has my writings in it.
check it out.

http://kerinawriterings.blogspot.com/

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Or I'll kill you.

loljk

But no pwease go wook at it

One more post

2009-05-14T06:31:00.000-07:00

Soooooo Tuesday night I started a journal thing in which I do random ramblings (kinda like I do on my blog)
But different.
Its more like poetry stuff like that.

sooooooooooo

I haven't decided whether to put my journal on here or start a new blog with my writing.....

Yeah I'll start a blog with my writing stuff in it..........

YEAH!

Ehhhh......

2009-05-14T06:09:00.000-07:00

So this has been a really strange week....well....strange since like last Wednesday.

My Great-Grandma died Friday night, after being in the hospital for years.

You see, her youngest, Irene (40 something) kicked her out of her house a few years back and sent her to a nursing home.

I don't know the entire situation.

But Wednesday night, I guess something happened, and she had pneumonia and a blood clot in her lung, and My grama's sister-in-law and Irene told her that Great-Grandma wanted to die, so they pretty much just let her die, and she could've been saved.

:[

It's sad.

Obviously.

Happy Mothers Day.......

Well Saturday was fun.

Minus work.

But my coworker friend person Abby came over and helped me clean my room.
It was almost 11 and she didn't have a ride home, cuz all her roomates were drunk (Abby's 21 soooooooo its legal. And her roomies are my coworkers) so I had to drive her home (and I only have an intermediate license so my legal curfew is 12:30)

So she lives in Squaw Creek (sp?) in Marion, and I live in Summet View, by Westdale.....
-_-

That took alot of gas.

And she didn't even know where she lived, so we had to call Andy cuz he was there and she wouldn't stop yelling and I was like, "ABBY SHUT THE HELL UP!!!!"

Soooooo they invited me inside, but I refused to drink cuz 1. I'm a minor. 2. I was driving. and 3. Alcohol is stupid.

But I stayed till like 12:20 (which would only leave me 10 minutes to drive to the other side of town), but I was having fun and I didn't really wanna leave, cuz its fun to mess with drunk people. We attempted to play pool and the guys were being stupid.

And awkwardly, Andy pulled me into another room (which freaked me out cuz you never know what drunk people are gonna do, but thank god nothing happened so it was okay) and told me I should go out with Chris (whom everyone calls Goat). Uhm......yeah....he's cool and all but there was one tiny problem.....
He's 23
And I'm 17 1/2
(Yes today is my half birthday)

I was like, noooooooo
And Andy (being drunk) was like, WHYYYYYY?
And I was like, well if you want your buddy to go to prison then sure, but since I don't want anyone to go to prison for dating me then nooooooooooooo.
And Andy was like, HE'LL WAIT 6 MONTHS
And I said, Well if he did that would be awesome, but we'll see.

So Lydia Whore Face of course had to get involved and put her 2 cents in.
She was rambling on how it was a bad idea cuz his ex is psycho and I'm a minor and blah blah blah, and I flat out told her nothings gonna happen.

But this is where it gets funny.

She wanted me to date her 20 year old brother (who is bi, but he is more towards guys)
But she doesn't want me to date Goat (who is straight, but 23)

Yeah......

Awkwardly weird week.

GOD BLESS A FREAKIN MERICA!!!! >.<

2009-05-05T06:02:00.000-07:00

I lost my freakin headphones.

And I left my iPod in my car.

LGUKJALFKGJKDJGHJGHDFJA

And I'm sick.

But my mom wouldn't let me stay home cuz of zero hour gym.

But Ima try to go home after this hour.

Erugughghuahglfughadgafjkl

And I have to work tonight.

AhHhHhHhHhHhHhH!!!!!

Now I have no song of the moment thing today.

OR DO I???

I just can't listen to it T_T

Well here it is:

Guilty Pleasure- Cobra Starship

I like this band mostly because they have alot of funny songs.

Like, they do parodies of popular songs like I Kissed a Girl by Katy Perry (I Kissed a Boy) and Holler Back Girl by Gwen Stafani (Holler Back Boy) and they have a song called Snakes on a Plane.

Soooooooooooo.

I am extremely bored at the moment.

And I have no idea what to blog about.

QUOTE TIME!

"I do not want people to be agreeable, as it saves me the trouble of liking them." - Jane Austen

"When good men die their goodness does not perish,But lives though they are gone. As for the bad, All that was theirs dies and is buried with them." - Euripides

"Animals have these advantages over man: they never hear the clock strike, they die without any idea of death, they have no theologians to instruct them, their last moments are not disturbed by unwelcome and unpleasant ceremonies, their funerals cost them nothing, and no one starts lawsuits over their wills." -Voltaire

"God is a comedian playing to an audience too afraid to laugh." - Voltaire

"History is a pack of lies we play on the dead." - Voltaire

"Either that wallpaper goes, or I do." - Oscar Wilde

The gods are too fond of a joke- Aristotle

2009-05-01T06:35:00.000-07:00

So I'm dressed up like a hippie today.

I'll take pictures later.

This head band Auboob Crack baby gave me is uncomfortable.

siggghhhh.

MR. AYERS DID YOU DIEEEEEEE??????

That would suck.

Cuz then we wouldn't get grades for our amazazing blogs!

T_T

Don't die Mr. Ayers.

For the love of god

DON'T DIE!

What a week!!!!

2009-04-30T05:44:00.000-07:00

So this is the day I've been waiting for for about 3 and a half years.

I'M GETTING MY TRAIN TRACKS OFF IN ABOUT AN HOUR!

This week has been crazy.

I worked Monday, which I never do.

I almost quit my job Tuesday, cuz Kelly (one of the managers) was being a bitch. I mean I gave Mary the head set and she flipped out on me and was like, "Oh so you call the shots now?"

And I was like, you said I could have a break so I asked Mary if she would take it and she said sure, so it wasn't like I just threw it on her!

And she just kept storming around cussing and stuff, and I was like, you know what? screw this, I'm going outside.

Sigh.

But we're cool now.

I guess.....

Anyways.

Yesterday I got payed AND got a hippie skirt for my project tomorrow.

And today I get these off.

And I don't work until Sunday.

WOOOO

AND

AND

AND

My mom's going out of town on Saturday, so that means I'll have about 32 hours without her accessive nagging.

I mean I love her, but yesterday when I was driving with her in the car (which she hasn't done since I got my license, and she was showing me the detour to the mechanic's place cuz I need an oil change) all I heard the whole damn time was, "You don't take care of this car blah blah blah, you need to clean you're room blah blah blah, stop changing the music blah blah blah, College blah blah blah, I'm a nagger blah blah blah."

I would just like to point out that it isn't me who keeps trashing my car.

My friends just automatically assume just because it's an old car that its a trash can.

I am so sick of having to clean up after my friends.

Its just like, if I were in your car would you like it if I threw my ranch packets on the floor and stomp on them???

And then they throw their food out the window, which I could get a ticket for that.

ANYWAYS

this isn't a blog post about bitching.

I'VE DECIDED TO ADD SOMETHINGS TO MY BLOG!!!!

Along with my occassional song of the moment stuff I may tell a story from my past which will make you think, "What the hell?" OR a quote from some famous dead person.

OR BOTH!

Right now I'd like to tell a story that my mom told me last night.

In memory of my Grandpa, Michael Peter Byrne (yeah I have my mom's last name)

So when My mom was 19, she was getting my Grandpa a gift, and he has a twisted sense of humor (which I inheritted.) And my mom saw this shirt that said Iowa: Big Cock Country.

She gave it to him.

He loved it.

Fastforward about 10 years.

My mom had been trying for years/months (i'm not exactly sure, I was only 6, and I just heard this last night) to get him to go to the hospital.

You see, he, like my mother, had colon cancer, and he was having breathing troubles and heart problems.

So he called my mom at work and said he was ready to go to the doctor, which pissed her off cuz she was working.

So she drove over to his apartment, he opened the door in his Iowa: Big Cock Country tee-shirt and a pair of tighty whiteys.

My mom was like, "Seriously? You won't put your pants on?"

So he goes and tries to put on his pants, but he couldn't.

In a very breathy voice, he said, "Erin...I...can't....get....my....pants....on..."

He was a jokester.

So my mom says, "THATS NOT FUNNY!"

5 minutes later, he died in her arms.

She tried giving him mouth to mouth.

And she called 911, but they hung up so she had to call again.

So the medics come, and so does a priest (my grandpa was catholic) all pissed off cuz it was late on a wednesday night (that part I remember)

And while my mom, her husband, her sister, and her best friend were there watching the medics take him away, my mom starts laughing.

Everyone gave her the weirdest look.

Why was she laughing?

Her father died in one of his favorite tee-shirts.

He died wearing an Iowa: Big Cock Country shirt and a pair of tighty whiteys, in the arms of his favorite daughter.

I think thats the way he wanted to go.

Is that a mirror in your pocket?

2009-04-23T06:11:00.000-07:00

Sooooooo.
ONE WEEK TILL I GET MY BRACES OFF!
WWWWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Soooo pretty much I won't be here to update my amazing blog.
I'll probably do it at home.
SO NO WORRIES!

I'm kinda slightly almost fearing for my life at the moment.
Chad is looking up ways to kill me and make it look like an accident.

Well it's okay, I can take him.

lol

Anyways.
I HATE THIS EFFING KEYBOARD >.<

It does not meet my needs.

So now on to more important stuff....

Connor and Alex broke up.

Not gonna lie, I was actually happy.
They've been complaining about eachother for the past few weeks now and of course I'm in the middle, and I've been sick and tired of hearinging them bitch.

Connor bitches about not trusting Alex.
Alex bitches about Connor not trusting her.

And she proved him right.

Now I heard the story from both sides, but I guess Alex was at a birthday party and she kissed another guy.

She say's its because he took her phone and wasn't gonna give it back until she kissed him,
which is BULL!

I mean seriously, if a dude did that to me I'd have a few lovely words and throw a few punches till the jerk gave me back my phone.

So now, Connor wants her back (which I told him is stupid cuz he's been in another cheating relationship before) and I told him that he would just be setting himself up for another heart ache.
And he won't stop talking about suicide.
i was like, dude, if you don't want to live, then whats the point of you being my friend?
He's one of my closest friends and I don't want to see him do something stupid.

And then last night Alex texted me.
Asked if we were still friends.
I was like, well what you did was extremely stupid and you just proved to Connor that he absolutely can't trust you, which is something we talked about a few days before.

And then SHE went on with suicide.

So I bitched at them both and said, "YOU GUYS ARE SO SELFISH! Life is a gift you shouldn't waste it."

I mean seriously, I've talked about this before, but I suffer from depression, so the fact they are willing to end they're lives over some stupid teenage love thing pisses me off.

This is why I don't date.

And they keep talking about it, meaning they won't actually do it.

well thats my teenage rant for the day.

Guwarguh

2009-04-16T06:07:00.000-07:00

So I signed up for the mobile dealio on here. I mean Sure I already can get it on my phone, but I was like, why the hell not?
So yeah.

I GOT THE MOST AMAZAZING EMAIL EVER!!!

There's this band I like called Hey Monday and they really like to interact with their fans.

I mean I get mobile updates and everything.

So I got this email from the fan sight and I guess you can call this number, leave a message, and Cassiddee (the lead singer) will call you back.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!

I may try it tonight.

That will be sooo BA if she actually did call back.

So....
Other story.

I was on myspace (I don't really go on it anymore, but I check it occasionally) and I got this friend request from a band called The Bigger Lights.

It was myspace mobile so I didn't really know if they were actually good.

But I'm listening to them right now and they're pretty good.

They actually comment back too.

It's pretty awesome.

Here's one of the songs

When Did We Lose Ourselves: The Bigger Lights

I'm a little Tea Pot

2009-04-13T13:10:00.000-07:00

So I'm sitting next to my friend, Kelly.
It's 3:11 pm
School got out 26ish minutes ago.
So why am I still here?
TO WRITE A BLOG OF COURSE!

Sigh.
I lie.

I'm here working (well should be working) on a project for APUSH
It's ridonkulous.
I mean we have to cram 55 minutes worth of information into an entire class period.

NO EXTENSIONS

It'll go one of 2 ways.

It will either A. Kick ass and recieve an award, or it will B. Fail miserably, forcing us to fake our deaths and change our names in order to keep our identities safe.

I think its leaning more towards B.

2009-04-10T07:23:00.000-07:00

So I'm sitting next to Chris Ingram and we're reading Reagan Quotes for AP US and they're pretty funny.
Now I must poke Chris so he looks over here and reads this...
HI CHRIS!

Drama

2009-04-06T09:02:00.000-07:00

I am just sick and freakin tired of all the stupid drama that's been going on.

So Friday night I was at home watching a movie when my friend Lydia, from work, was texting me.

First it was harmless.

Then she said that she needed to talk to me about something 'important'

(May I just point out if it was 'important' she should've waited to tell me in person and not through a text message)

I guess she and the new guy, Chris, were talking about me.

Before we go on I must explain something.

I make alot of inuendos.

And most of them are pretty funny.

And I do it to EVERYONE at work.
And EVERYONE at work does it too.
So I don't know what the big deal is.

Anyways.

I guess Chris was worried about me because his girlfriend was raped 3 times because she does the same thing I do.

....

Um.......I don't make inuendos to EVERYONE
And I know self defense so thats not really a problem.

But I guess he and Lydia are in agreement that I'm gonna get raped or something.

I was just like, what the hell?

And then Lydia was pretty much saying that I'm giving Andy, our friend (who's 25 and I already know he has a crush on me but its nothing and its quite funny, and Andy is one of my good friends.) mixed signals.

..........
again, I do it to EVERYONE at work.

And then she told me to stop doing it in front of Andy.
Because she doesn't want me to get raped.

hmmmm........
She and Andy use to be roomates.
And she's pretty much calling him a rapist.
And I know Andy isn't a rapist for many reasons such as:

1. If he were a rapist, and I was giving him mixed signals, I'm pretty sure he would've tried to get in my pants by now.
2. He knows everything I say is a joke, so he doesn't take what I say seriously. (I mean how could you? I purposely make it sound like a joke, just so it wouldn't be taken wrong)
3. He's never been accused of rape and if he were a rapist, he must be very good at hiding it.

So I was pretty pissed.
I was like, DUDE I'm not gonna get raped and Andy isn't gonna do anything!

And THEN (this is the icing on the cake of jealousy) she said, "Ok, you can do it in front of Andy, just stop doing it around my boyfriend (Ben, whom I call mom)"

She always tells me how she's afraid I'm going to steal him from her.

And I was like, "FOR THE LAST GODDAMN TIME I AM NOT TRYING TO STEAL BEN! He's not my type, He's 20, He loves you, and if you are really worried about him leaving you for a 17-year-old maybe you shouldn't be dating him!"

And she was all like, "Don't get offensive (even though its DEFEnsive), I'm just asking you as a friend, lay off of Ben."

I was pretty livid.

I mean seriously, I don't really talk to Ben that way anyways, and it pisses me off cuz it seems as if she doesn't trust me, and I'm like her only friend at work.
And also, she wasn't worried about me. She was worried about herself.
And the fact that she pretty much was talking behind my back to a guy who hardly even knows me pisses me off.

She made it come across as if I was a whore.

Ok lets get another thing straight.

Yes, I have a lot of guy friends, but No, I do not sleep around.

And then she said my flirting was a problem, and I was like BITCH! I'M NOT TRYING TO BE FLIRTATIOUS! I'm a bubbly person and I can easily make friends, but I'm not trying to flirt with people, thats not what I'm trying to do.

So at work, I showed Andy the text messages and he was pissed.
We were pretty much waiting the entire time for her to walk in the door so we could yell at her.

She came in at 3 with Ben because she was too lazy to walk in at 5.

So Andy went outside to confront her, and she denied everything, and he was like, "Lydia, I read the text messages, don't fucking lie to me."

And I told Ben about it, because he was gonna get pulled into it sometime, and Lydia was standing at the counter and was like, Kerina! I'm right here! And I was like, yeah, you're right here and so am I, this is how you talk to people, TO THEIR FACES!
And then she asked if she could talk to me so I went outside and we talked in my car.

First thing she said was, "I feel betrayed"
Wrong thing to say.
I said, "You feel betrayed???? Why make it about you! Thanks to you, Andy has no trust in you whatsoever, you betrayed my trust, and you're making it sound as if I'm trying to steal your boyfriend, and you're spreading rumors about Andy being a rapist."

She said, "I didn't specicify (its 'specify' dumbass) what I meant. I'm not calling Andy a rapist."

So I read the text message to her.

She was still denying it.

I told her off then and there.

I said, "Lydia, I'm not gonna get raped. I only do it to my friends, and if you want to talk to me about something, talk to ME and not some random dude at work who doesn't even know who the hell I am. And stop accusing me of trying to take your boyfriend. For the last goddamn time, you are disrespecting me and Ben by making it seem as if we can't be trusted. But it's you who can't be trusted because you have to spread these stupid rumors and shit. Get a life and stay out of mine."

And then when I got off the clock, I was talking to Ben and he told me how Lydia was talking about me all weekend (-_-) and she was saying how I flirt too much and he told me that he told her she was being hypocritical.

And then I said, "OH and for the last time IM NOT TRYING TO STEAL YOU!"
And he looked at me and said, "I know."

So Lydia texted me later that night and said, "I'm sorry....blah blah blah, please forgive me, blah blah blah, I'd feel much better if you do."

You know what I did?

I didn't respond.

I believe a true apology is face to face, just so you can see if they're sincere.

And I'm not gonna trust her for a long time.

So thats my rant for the day.

Lets just hope she can grow the hell up.

It's a Burger King, not a Drama Queen.

Bittersweet Symphony

2009-04-03T11:34:00.000-07:00

Totally blogging from astronomy right now.
I Just finished the chapter 30 test.
I'm sure I did well on it, but you can never be too sure.

soooooooo

Yeah

Nothing really going on.

Just extremely bored.

2009-04-02T06:45:00.000-07:00

OH!
And here's my song of the moment thingy.
It's one of my all-time favorites.
I heard it on one of the Smallville finales when I watched the entire series up until the 6th season 2 summers ago, and I fell in love with it.

Weapon- Matthew Good

Some week.

2009-04-02T06:09:00.000-07:00

Sigh...

I tried to upload this picture of elmo dancing on my cellular electronical device and it didn't work

T_T

oh...well...anyways.

THIS HAS BEEN ONE HELL OF A WEEK

Spring break was uneventful, of course.

All I did was sleep in and work.
And I only worked 3 days.

And then I had Sunday off.

Sigh....

Colonoscopy prep.

Stupid mom and her genetic bad cancer genes.

T_T

The half lytely crap is DISGUSTING!!!!!!!!!

I kept throwing up.

This was my third one.

Pretty young.

But the day OF the colonoscopy, they couldn't get the stupid IV in and I am DEATHLY afraid of needles.

It took seven pokes and 3 nurses to get it in.

And my mom made a crack by saying I'd have to do it awake.

So I started crying.

And she was like, "Oh I'm sorry hun, I thought you knew I was kidding."

And I was like, "Yeah, mom, your sarcasm is unappreciated today."

So they got the needle in.

And they were wheeling me out of the room, and the nurse asked if I had any last words for my mom.

I pause, and look at her, and the first thing that came to mind was a nice little finger gesture that made the nurses gasp.

Good thing my mom laughed.

So they wheeled me to the room place thing and the doctor asked me random questions like if I had surgeory.

And he asked me if this was my first one.

I was like...uhm noooo....my third.

which he should've known cuz DUDE! I'm not that easy to forget, I mean, IM ONLY 17!

And he asked me who my mom was.....

And I was just like, did you not look at my file?

AND MY MOM IS THE YOUNGEST PERSON IN IOWA TO HAVE COLON CANCER!!!!

pardon my french but....

WHAT.

THE.

FUCK?

So they sedated me.

Tooooooo much.

I barely remember anything from that day.

Or Tuesday.

Cuz I was still high off the Valum or whatever its called.

Work was fun though. Cuz all I can remember is that I was talking in a country accent and I made everyone laugh.

Soooo yeah.

Someone broke into my car yesterday and stole some items.

Good thing they were easily replaceble.

BUT SERIOUSLY!

It's pissing me off.

Someone broke into my car and stole my iPod a few weeks ago.

And I saved up for that.

So I had to get a new one.

And my cellphone was being.......stupid

It kept shutting off so I had to go in twice to get it fixed, so yesterday they just transfered my stuffs onto another phone.

Yeah.

Thats pretty much it.

And I dyed my hair black.

AND HERE ARE SOME APRIL FOOLS DAY STUFF I DID TO MY MOM!

So she lost her job April fools day (well actually the day before but she started the new one yesterday. It's in the same company so thats good)

I couldn't really play pranks on her yesterday.

That would've been cruel.

So I did it before Wednesday.

Hahaha

You see, my mom is MAJORLY OCD.

The woman has her closet organized by color and shade.

Our water heater broke and she had to move all her clothes cuz its in her closet, so when she came home that night she had to put them all back and I was watching her and I was like oh my god.

She was like, WELL LOOK! I HAVE SOME GREENS HERE AND SOME OVER HERE SO NOT EVERYTHING IS IN ITS PLACE!

And I was like, Wow mom, congrats. You're such a bad ass.

So when she was looking I started rearranging everything, and she was like STOP IT!

So when she went to work the next day, I rearranged EVERYTHING

I waited all evening for her to see it and freak out. But she never went into her closet.

And She had friday off cuz she was going to a friends birthday lunch brunch thing.

(Why do old people eat early?)

Anyways, it was about 9:00 and she was getting ready, and she saw what I did and laughed for about 5 seconds. And then I guess she couldn't find her white shirt (which she has a gagillion of) so I woke up to the sound of "KERINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"Mom?"

"REARRANGE MY CLOSET RIGHT NOW! I HAVE TO LEAVE IN 45 FUCKING MINUTES!"

So I did so, and went back to bed.

She found the shirt.

lol

OH and then Tuesday I called her like I always do before I leave for school. She answered and I was like, Uhm...mom?

"Yeah?"

"I locked my keys in my car again."

"......You're Kidding me right?"

".......Yep. April fools."

".....You bitch."

hahahahahah

OH and of course I did a tiny prank on her yesterday.

You see, I had an ortho appointment yesterday, and they had to put a wedge in so my tooth can rotate, and the assistant person chick thing was like, "You may think you broke your braces but its supposed to be like that so don't call and freak out."

So when I came home I went to my mom and was like, "Mommy?"

"What?"

"Look what I did when I was driving"

*Points to tooth*

"What the hell did you do????"

"I don't know!!!!"

"How did you break it???"

".....I didn't. It's supposed to be there. It's a wedge. hahahah."

".....You're a skank."

hahah thats how my mom and I talk to eachother.

We call eachother names.

Jokingly of course.

I call her a whore.

She calls me a bitch, and such.

So its fine lol.

Well thats pretty much it.

2009-03-19T06:44:00.000-07:00

1. First thing you wash in the shower? Hair
2. What color is your favorite hoodie? Pink Grey and Blue
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Nahhhh
4.Do you plan outfits? Nope
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? Bleh
6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red? My socks
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m? Aim.
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? I fell off an escalater...I have no Idea how....
9. Did you meet anybody new today? actually I did in the hall.
10. What are you craving right now? A Vanilla Bean Frappy
11. Do you floss? Its hard
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? gross
13. When was the last time you talked on aim? last weekend
14. Are you emotional? I can be
15. Would you dance to the taco song? the what song?
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000? yes
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? awkward answer, but the second one lol
18. Do you like your hair? I miss the crazy colors
19. Do you like yourself? Eh
20. Have you ever met a celebrity? Paul Revere from Paul Revere and the Raiders
21. Do you like cottage cheese? LOVE IT
22. What are you listening to right now? Undead by Hollywood Undead
23. How many countries have you visited? 3
24. Are your parents strict? So so
25. Would you go sky diving? HELL YEAH
26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? Only if he was paying
27. Would you throw potatoes at him? That would be the only reason I would go out to eat with him
28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in? Not really paying attention
29. Have you ever been in a castle? Many
30. Do you rent movies often? use to
31. Who sits in behind you in your math class? Aubrey
32. Have you made a prank phone call? hhahahahahahah yes
33. Do you own a gun? no
34. Can you count backwards from 74? yes
35. Who are you going to be with tonight? my coworkers
36. Brown or white eggs? i prefer brown ones but we get the white ones
37. Do you own something from Hot Topic? many things
38. Ever been on a train? yep
39. Ever been in love? I'll get back to you on that
40. Do you have a cell-phone? si
41. Are you too forgiving? usually
42. Do you use chap stick? Occasionally
43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow? I have no Idea
44. Can you use chop sticks? Si...er...i mean HAI
45. Ever have cream puffs? hate em
46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect? Love it
47. What was the last question you asked? How many blogs are we supposed to have?
48. What was the last CD you bought? Hold on Tight- Hey Monday
49. Boys or girls? depends on the circumstance. If you're referring to my preferrence I'd say boys. Just cuz we girls are manipulative Bitches.
50. What is your bus number for school? I drive
51. Is your hair curly? wavey
52. Last time you cried? hahahahaha 2 days ago when chris touched my arm lol I totally fake cried
53. Ever walked into a wall? when haven't I?
54. Do looks matter? They're important for impressions
55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun? yeah
56. Have you ever slapped someone? multiple times
57. Favorite time of the year? Fummer
58. Favorite color? Purple
59. Are you sarcastic? No not at all.
60. Do you have any tattoos? Nope
61. The last person you held hands with? Monami
62. Do you sleep with the TV on? Sometimes
63. Where was your default picture taken at? My bathroom
64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people? yeah
65. Do you like your life right now? eh
66. How often do you talk on the phone? everyday with my mom
67. What is your favorite animal? Penguin
68. What was the most recent thing you bought? A soda
69. Do you have good vision? Not really
70. Can you hula hoop? haha no
71. Could you ever forgive a cheater? never
72. Do you have a job? yep
73. Can you handle the truth? yes
74. What are you wearing? Clothes
75. Have you ever crawled through a window? I've crawled out of one

I like my coffee black just like my metal

2009-03-19T06:30:00.000-07:00

I got me some new kicks.

They'se be hawwwt.

And I'm listening to.....

THIS!!!!!

Sweep the Leg: Karate Highschool.

My friend Shelby texts the Guitarist.

She randomly started talking to them on Myspace.

SPEAKING OF SHELBY!!!!!

Her birthday was yesterday.

I can't wait till she gets out of Tanager.

hmmmm....thats pretty much it.

AHHHHHHH

2009-03-17T14:46:00.000-07:00

i totally got blogger.com on my phone.
its pretty bad ass.
i'm blogging from work now
WOOOOOOT

too lazy to format atm.

2009-03-16T19:43:00.000-07:00

OHHHHHHHH
to totally distract you before you read the next post (unless you read it first and like to go in chronoligical order)
I FOUND THE MOST AMAZING JAPANESE DRAMA EVER!!!
Its called Hana Yori Dango.
I'd give you a brief summary, but I'm too lazy so I'll just come back and edit.
And give a link.
(notice how I didn't even change the font.)

EDITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
Here's the link:
http://www.mysoju.com/hana-yori-dango/

hmmmm...

2009-03-16T19:12:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking a lot lately
Mostly about myself.
Now before you go and think that I'm thinking in a selfish sense, I'm not thinking about myself in a "the world revolves around me sense" or an "I'm so perfect, I can get anything I want sense" I've just been thinking about the kind of person I am.
What I've discovered is that my personality clashes with itself.

I'm different.
Everyone is.
But I mean like different different different.

On the surface I seem like a crazy wacky annoying person. Which most of the time I am.

But underneith it all, I'm actually a dark person.

I like to make it seem as though I'm an optimist.

But I'm more of a pessimistic realist.

I like to be realistic with things, but I always think its just gonna go all to hell.

I don't really see a glass as being half empty or half full. I see it more as a glass 3/4 empty.

I'm very hypocritical.

When my friend has a problem, I try to make them see the upside on things.

If someone is having bad relationship issues, I like to make them think they're lucky they didn't lose a limb.

Some of my friends think that when something goes bad that there is nothing they can do.

But like my friend Becca says, there are people who have worse problems than angst or relationship issues or parent issues.

There are some people who have to lie in a hospital bed for the rest of their lives with an uncurrable disease that is slowly eating the inside of their body.

Those people are the most optimistic people ever.

The terminally ill don't like to pay attention to their dying-ness. They really don't want to think about death. But they know its coming.

They live life to its fullest.

So why can't we, those who don't have as much to lose, do that?

We have everything in our reach and we can acheive anything we want if we try hard enough.
So why do we fail?

A few weeks ago, Connor asked me why he can't do anything right.

We had this long, deep conversation, and everytime I would say something, he would totally just blow it off and say, "It doesn't matter."

I was sooo pissed.

Its kinda like, why ask if you aren't gonna listen to what I say?

I'm a writer.

I can word things on paper in a way I can't word them out loud.

Good thing we were texting.

Its harder to express your feelings on paper, but for some reason it just comes naturally to me.

When he asked why he always fails, I told him it was because he's weak.

He sees failure as an inevitability.

He wants to fail.

When something goes shitty in his life, he just gives up.

He has no passion.

No drive.

And he doesn't like to listen to me.

Eventhough he knew I was right.

He's always bitching about how he has no friends and everyone hates him. And how most of his friends treat him like crap.

I told him maybe he should grow a backbone and start to stick up for himself.

But then he said he was afraid all his friends would hate him.

I was like, "DUDE! If you start to stick up for yourself, you're friends will either respect you, or hate you. And the ones who hate you are the ones that you shouldn't even be wasting your time with. Stop letting me, your girlfriend, and the rest of your friends walk all over you. If you aren't willing to change, then stop complaining and deal. If you're life is as bad as you think it is, you should probably change it, but since you aren't willing to change it, then you have no room to bitch."

Thats when I realized.

I do the same exact thing.

When something goes wrong in my life, I just try to run away from it and all I do is bitch to my friends. I never take action.

I mean, the whole weakness thing is kinda how I am.

I mean if my friend is bothering me I really don't say anything and I just vent to my other friends about it.
Which means I talk shit behind their back.
I don't have the guts to confront them.

But I'm not afraid of being hated.
Sure I like to get along with everyone, cuz I freakin hate drama, but if someone has a problem with me, I'm not about to get into a fight with them.
Its all a matter of opinion.
If someone doesn't like me, I'm not gonna change myself just to get them to like me.
I like who I am....well sorta.

I'm a bubbley person who likes to talk to people.
But I'm one of the most shy people you will ever meet.
I love being around my friends.
But my idea of a nice weekend involves me, a cupboard full of food, a remote, and a bed.
I'm afraid of being alone
But I find being alone is being one of the most comfortable states of mind.
I have a wacky sense of style
But I'm a very conservative person.
It may seem like I have the courage
But I'm one of the biggest chickens.

I may seem like a happy person, but its all an act.
The truth is........
I've been fighting depression all my life.
It's one of those things I'm not really open about for discussion.
No I don't take pills, although I probably should.
My mom is a very depressed person and actually should be going through theropy.
But we can't afford it.
And we don't have the time.
My mom and I both have those days (frequently) where all we want to do is just lay in bed and cry.
Its normally quiet around my house during the weekends.

I'm a Scorpio.
The description of my sign fits me to a T.
It pretty much says we try to help others before we help ourselves.
Which is what I try to do.
We take on other peoples emotions and try to resolve their issues, even if we have our own issues to settle.
It's hard for us to be happy.
We try to save the world (in a sense) which takes a lot of compromise.

I know what kind of person I am.
I don't know if I'm a good person or a bad person.
I'm just me.

ALL HAIL THE MAGICAL CRUICIFRY!!!!!

2009-03-12T06:15:00.000-07:00

c[]===[]xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx >

STAB!!!!!

Yeah I walked into work last night, and sneaked to the break room so I could talk to my friend Andy cuz he told me something, and before I left I saw this and was like OMGIZZLE!

So I had to take a photo of it.

Yesterday was a crappy day however.

I was late to my ortho, cuz I got lost.

I was sitting in the stupid laying down chair thing.

Breathing in the Rubber glove/minty/fear/dispair/death smell.

Waiting an hour.

Anxious cuz I want these mother effing things off!!!!

I mean, come on, its been 3 and a half years now!

AKLFGHALDFHFKGJADHLFHALGUIHJAFGJKLD

Then the orthodontist person dude thing (who is also a creeper) came over and said, "We're gonna get these off."

In my mind i go WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

The funny thing is, my appointment to get them off is...April First.

I swear to god if this is a joke theres gonna be one less orthodontist in Cedar Rapids.

But the funny thing is my mom loses her job that day as well.

She was one of the lucky 200 at yellow book.

I really hope she gets the job she wants.

:-/

Jess was one lucky bee-otch

2009-03-08T15:48:00.000-07:00

So I came into work on Saturday, bout ready to work my 9-5 shift, like I always do.
I was excited for my break cuz I would get to see my friend Kelly, cuz she needed to borrow a book.
And on my breaks I usually just sit in my car and listen to music.
So I was excited to actually be doing something.
10 o'clock comes around, and we get busier than holy hell.
And the OER comes in....

Long story short, no one got a break.
They stayed till about 3:00
And we were busy for the entire day.
And I felt like a Cinderella.
Kerina, do this.
Kerina, do that.
Kerina don't blah blah blah
Kerina, tie your shoes.
Blah blah freakin blah.

And Jessica, one of the Managers was on Whopper board, and she cut her finger on the microwave.

The lucky bitch got to wait in the ER for 3 hours.

God I wish I stuck my hand in the Fryer.........

Finals

2009-03-04T10:48:00.000-08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
that is all.

2009-02-24T20:39:00.000-08:00

I just felt like doing this

2009-02-12T06:49:00.000-08:00

http://www.bulletinsandsurveys.com/surveys/itsallme.php

1. The phone rings. What is your ring tone? I believe its the powerpuff girls end theme by Biz
2. Did you go anywhere yesterday? I picked up pizza's, if that counts
3. Who was the last person you shared beds with? probably my sister.....
4. Favorite drink? CLUB LEMON! Sadly only found in Europe
5. Does the person you like know that you like them? Well I don't 'like' anyone at the moment
6. Last time you talked to your mom? About an hour and a half ago
7. Where are you right now? 64b
8. If you HAD to kiss the last person you kissed, would you? If I was getting payed.
9. Favorite gadget in the kitchen? hmm...THE MINI FORMAN GRILL! Ise makes yummy Panini's
10. Favorite pie? Apple
11. How is your hair? Crazy. Pink. Like cotton candy.
12. Where's the last place you walked to? This classroom
13. Last time you had a sleepover? Like..........the summer.
14. Latest you stayed up in the past week? last night I stayed up till 1ish.
15. What are you doing? this stupid survey.
16. Have you been in a car accident? yes. I was in a bus accident last year and my sensei told my class I got hit by a bus.
17. What is the last thing you said aloud? THATS HOW YOU SPELL EUROPE!
18. Who's the 1st person on your missed calls list? Some telemarketer
19. What did the last text message you received say? Nih
20. Last time you went to church? oh um...like 2 years ago
21. Story behind your MySpace song? I just like it.
22. What's bothering you right now? My computer.
DESCRIBE YOUR:
23.Wallet? old with monkies that are peeling off
24.Eyes? green grey blue
25.Life? eh
WHAT ARE YOU:
26.Doing this weekend to come? working
27.Wearing? clothes
28.Wanting? food
29.Listening to? talking
30.What do you smell? school?
31.Do you sleep naked? awkward.
32.Do you like seafood? hells yeah!
33.Do you remember your dreams? sometimes
34.Do you consider yourself a study freak? nope
35.Do you speak another language other than English? japanese and czech
36.What did you do last night? played games
37.What do you hate? TIME
38.Orange or apple juice? orange
39.Who were the last people you went out to lunch with? Becca
40.Last thing you ate? Pizza

BLOGGIN ABOUT BLOGGIN

2009-02-12T06:28:00.000-08:00

So ThE pOiNt Of ThIs BlOg Is To PrEtTy MuCh StAtE mY oPiNiOnS aBoUt BlOgGiNg AnD hOw I fEeL aBoUt It AnD bLaH bLaH bLaH
And I'm getting sick of typing like that (shift, letter, no shift letter, space)

So blogging....

hmmm....

I can honestly say that I kind of enjoy it.

I mean, despite the fact I don't really have a purpose for blogging, it's a good place to vent.

I can state my opinions and not have to see the reactions on people's faces (unless they were to take pictures of themselves and post them as comments, which that would be freakin sweet.)

I really don't blog for anyone but myself.

I like going back and reading what I wrote, because it reminds me of how I felt that day.

And for some reason I always find something to blog about.

I've kinda always been able to express myself through my writing.

Kinda weird.

And its weird for me to keep posting as often as I do.

I mean, yeah, I'm one of those addicted to facebook and myspace, but I never really blog about myself.

I never express my opinions.

And I tend to put things off for a while.

I'm a procrastinater.

So this blog is something new to me.

I do enjoy blogging.

And even when this school year is over and I don't have to blog for my class anymore, I will most likely update frequently.

And my friends enjoy reading what funny random thing I have to say next.

Maybe I should write a book...........

ZOMGS I JUST RECEIVED A TEXT MESSAGE!!!!

2009-02-11T16:14:00.001-08:00

And I just accidently pushed enter instead of tab.

>.<

Anyways, it was my Japanese lover (lol just kidding, its Monami Harada, one of the foreign exchange students) asking me if I was planning on going to WPA

I haven't really decided.

I mean, my friends and I made a pact when we were freshman to never go to a WPA dance, because there was no point going to a dance called, "Women Pay All," when its the 21st century and feminism is too common for there to actually be a dance based on girls asking boys to a dance and paying for them.

This is the reason why Chivalry is dead.

And No lies, I totally just had to google that to see if I spelled it correctly.

But anyways.

I never saw a point in going because I've never actually had the guts to ask a boy, who wasn't my boyfriend (eventhough I've only had one boyfriend, and I asked him to homecoming and it still didn't work out cuz he waited till the last moment to ask his mom so I was kinda stood up, and I already bought the stupid tickets. -_- stupid boy) and it would kinda be lame to go to a Sadie Hawkins dance without a date.

Homecoming is different.

The theme for homecoming is pretty much the end of a victorious (or crappy) football season.

The theme for WPA is to have a date.

And not go with a group of your best girlfriends.

Which, ironically enough I have more guy friends than I have chick friends.

Tomboy.

:P

(WARNING: THIS IS THE WORST TRANSITION FROM ONE TOPIC TO ANOTHER IN THE HISTORY OF TRANSISTIONS FROM ONE TOPIC TO ANOTHER.)
You have been warned.

I just find it easier to hang out with dudes because girls tend to be more catty and talk about their troubles and stuff, whereas guys are more about action.

When girls are bored, we just sit and talk or watch tv or something lame to try and pass the time (lets just say I never really liked slumber parties.)

Boys, however, like to actually get up and do something, that usually requires brainpower, or athletic ability, like video games or some weird random sportsy game thing.

And me, being the strange weird freak I am, can not just sit down and not do something. If I'm watching tv, I have to do something that makes my brain work. I play board games and card games by myself, and I do sudoku puzzles (LOVE THEM!!!!!!)

I'm technically an only child.

I have step brothers and sisters, but all but one of them are older than me.

And I have no idea how many half-siblings I have, cuz I've never met my father's family, let alone my father.

I have one step-sister who is the same age as me. Her name is Jen, and we were never legally step sisters, but here's our story:

We met in Kindergarten.

My Mom was married.

She got a divorce when I was in the 1st grade.

Jen's parents were already divorced.

Her dad is 13 1/2 years older than my mom.

They started dating when we were in 2nd grade.

She was 28.

He was 41.

We were best friends up until that point.

Then we got lumped together and had to do everything together.

At first it was by choice.

But then after a while we resented eachother.

She use to beat the living crap out of me.

I was older.

But she was bigger.

By about a foot and 50 pounds.

Then in 4th grade she switched elementary schools, but our parents still dated.

Then during about the middle end of 4th grade, our parents broke up.

I don't really remember why.

Mostly because I don't think I could really comprehend the situation.

I mean my mom has told me now and I still don't get it.

And I was a 10 year old who knew why my mom got a divorce, because I told her that I saw my step-loser hugging another lady (I was 7 and it was a really difficult time because my Grampa died a few months before hand, and when I was with my step-loser, he would go to this women's house and leave me in the car for hours. I told my mom but she didn't believe me. Turns out the 7-year-old was right.)

But anyways.

Then they got back together at some point.

I think it was before the end of the school year.

Then I was told that summer that we were moving in with them, and I would have to leave all my elementary school friends behind when I went to middle school, cuz they were going to Roosevelt and I was going to Harding.

So we lived with them for about 3 years.

Then the day after New Years of 2006, we moved out.

So thats why I call Jen my step-sister.

We've had our rough times and stuff, but we are still really close.

Whenever we have a problem we always are there for one another.

You have no idea how many times she has found a haven in our house.

My mom used to say no.

But now I don't even ask.

I just tell Jen to come over and pretend like it was an impulse.

I still call her dad 'Dad'

And she still calls my mom 'Mom'

But we relate in the way that I never knew my father, and her mom was too selfish to really truly care about her.

But enough with the heavy crap.

Ima end this post right about..........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................NOW!

And More Sickness.

2009-02-10T11:17:00.000-08:00

So I was a trooper.

I came to school feeling like crap.

And I was able to last till 4th hour.

I mean, I even got out of third hour so I could lay down and stuff.

But that was reading workshop so it wasn't that big of a deal.

But then I got a fever.

99.1

Thats normal for most.

But really high for me.

I mean, its funny, cuz my normal body temp is 96.8

So 98.6 for me is a slight fever.

Its really hard for me to get sent home from school.

I've tried to state my case to the nurses but of course I am merely a highschool student who knows nothing about her body.

But thats ok.

Its understandable.

Kids try to get sent home all the time.

So I'm not really complaining.

What I am complaining about however is this stupid black plague-like illness.

I went on to facebook and nearly every status I read said, "Siiiick"

I was like HOLY CRAP!

This is why I don't want to believe in a god.

Because if I did, then God would be a total ay-hole.

Give us beautiful weather, but rather than letting us enjoy it, we must stay in bed with a head cold.

-_-

But at least Spring is coming early.

Makes me want to apologize to what I said about Mr. Groundhog (read previous posts...I don't remember how many :P)

So yeah.

I'm at home.

Sitting at the desk.

Blogging.

I have 3 more before I catch up.

WOOOOOO

Now I gotta think of what song I should put for my Song of the Moment.

hmmm.......

*scratches chin*

uhmmmm.........

*looks down at iPod*

Ehhh...

AH SCREW THIS I'M CHEATING!

*shakes iPod and picks first random song*

Erughh....why this song?

*cheats again and keeps sifting through songs until a good one comes up*

About 200 songs later.....

YES

GOT IT

MY SONG OF THE MOMENT IS: Shut Me Up- Mindless Self Indulgence.

Its kind of a techno-y industrial-y rapish-ly kind of song.

Most people would find their songs inappropriate and annoying.

But then again, I'm not like most people.

I believe they're from England----thats because I've only briefly looked up the actual band.

Thats more of a guess than an actual fact.

But the lead singer is a dude (obviously) with spiked hair, their guitarist is also a dude, and (my favorite part about the band...and no not because I'm a feminist or anything, its just I've always wanted to play these instruments) they have a chick playing the drums, and another chick (who is married to Gerard Way of My Chemical Romance....GO DIE!) who plays the bass.

I love their music.

The lyrics make me giggle because of all the profanity they actually use.

It makes me feel giddy inside.

^_^

I think thats enough of this post.

TO THE BAT MOBILE!

DUN-DUN-DUN-NUH-NUH-NA!

(That wasn't Batman music, that was powerpuff girls music, which I think they are clearly better super heroes than Batman cuz 1. they were made in a basement from sugar, spice, and everything nice, and Chemical X, which is obviously some kind of drug the proffessor was on, cuz he clearly thought that making girls out of said ingrediants would make the perfect little girls....lets just say my Family and Consumer Sciences teacher would've hated him for that. and 2. Batman is a grown man in a costume who runs around Gothom city with a utility belt. What would the man do if Godzilla was attacking town hall? THROW HIS BELT AT HIM? Yeah. He's what I call a useless hero.)

erugh

2009-02-07T21:18:00.000-08:00

So.

I got sick Friday.

I was working. And I felt like poo.

And it didn't help that my manager, Cindy (Lucifer is more like it.) wouldn't stop jumping down my effing throat.

And I've been stressed out lately.

School.

Boys.

Job.

Normal teenage girl stuff.

But more on that later.

So I was telling Cindy that I might not come in today.

And She called me a whiney baby.

I was like, god forbid I'm sick and we work with food, if you want me to poison other people with my disease-ness, make me work.

So she went into the office, and I started cleaning dining room.

So she walked out, and told me to close up cash window, and she was like, "I'm sorry, I'm not trying to say that you aren't sick, its just that I was sick all last week and I came into work."

And In my mind I was like, yeah. Smart.

But I responded back, "Well its not like I call in all the time either."

She really pissed me off.

No body at work likes her.

She abuses her Managerial position.

Here are the ways how:

1. She treats us all like her worker-monkey-slaves, and if something goes wrong, we're all to blame. Even if she messes up on a sandwich, it's automatically our fault, because I guess we have magical mind powers that messes her up.

2. She will make you stay as long as she wants. Even if you are off at 4, she will make you stay till 6.

3. She uses her worker discount on her family. WHICH YOU CANNOT DO THAT. None of us are allowed to, and she barely gives us our own discounts. Yeah. She's a bitch.

She's a racist.

Everytime an Arab or an Indian comes in she says, "HERE COME THE SAND PEOPLE."

And Last Tuesday, before I clocked in, I was doing Japanese homework. She came up to me and asked me what I was doing. I showed her my Kanji (Japanese writing thingy) and she says, "Ching Chung Fish for dinner."

She really is a terrible human being.

And I like to find the good in people.

I treat her with respect, hoping to receive some in return.

But all she does is bitches at me about my hair, and she tries to find flaws in everyone else.

She walks around BK like a god.

And I'm like, yeah, you're a manager at a fast food joint. Congrats. You're gonna be here for the rest of your life, where as the rest of us only see this as a part time job, and we're gonna get out of here someday, to pursue jobs that actually IMPRESS people.

Erughhhhhhhhhhh

But Hope, my adult friend who hates Cindy with a passion, is trying to get her in trouble so she can either change or get fired.

We've all tried going to Matt, but Matt won't do a freakin thing.

So Hope is trying to go above Matt's head.

She's gonna talk to Derek.

Who happens to be the district manager for like all the Burgerkings.

I refuse to get myself involved.

But thats ok cuz there are many other witnesses against Cindy.

But I just recently dyed my hair pink.

And Cindy was all like, "YOU CANNOT SHOW ANY PART OF YOUR HAIR BLAH BLAH BLAH."

So my friend Abby had to help me get it all in my hat.

And I have pink in my bangs so its kinda hard to put that in a hat.

But she was still complaining about it and Matt told her it was fine.

And she had the gull to say, to my face, eventhough she talked like I wasn't even there, "Well maybe if she stopped dying her hair stupid colors, we wouldn't have to worry about it."

I'm Done.

I am SOOO freaking done.

I was seriously about to walk out last night.

And Hope even told me that its against my constitutional right as an American to not be able to show my hair.

It's not like it offends anyone.

And I wear a hat.

And the hat is only really there for health code reasons.

I just know one day. (and hopefully soon) Karma is gonna bite Cindy in the ass.

Yeah.

Thats my blog for the day.

Evening.

Whatever you'd like to call it.

Untitled.

2009-02-05T06:13:00.000-08:00

So.

I believe this is my tenth blog post thingy.

IM STARTING TO CATCH UP (giggle. Ketchup)

So I have a thing called a Deviant Art, where I post some pictures I take and drawings I do, and I write in the Journal thing.

My friend got me interested in it in 7th grade.

(Shelby)

Her's is more interesting than mine.

Mainly because she is more artistic than myself.

I'm more of a writer than a draw-er

I'm more of an author than a photographer.

My friends say I have potential, but I get writer's block a lot, so it's hard for me to finish a story I start.

Poetry is easy for me though.

Just because I don't really think when I write poetry.

Its like word vomit.

On page.

I can write funny poetry

Or melodramatic poetry.

Depending on my mood.

So thats pretty much it.

I'll blog more laterzzz

SONG OF THE MOMENT: I Want You Bad- The Offspring.

I've been listening to them since as long as I can remember.

They were the first band that I could identify.

And they're punk.

Which makes them more amazing.

My mom really influenced my musical interests.

She use to listen to music all the time when I was in the womb.

Like, More Than Words- Extreme.

I was able to recognize that song when I was 3.

And she listened to Fleetwood Mac a lot.

She always had them playing, just to make me go to sleep.

They mellowed me out.

They still do.

Which is awesome that the music still does that to me.

The first song I sang was a Del Amitri song.

She looooooves them.

And I guess I loved songs that had the word "baby" in it.

Cuz I guess I thought they were singing to me.

And my mom always called me baby.

Which she still does.

And I don't mind.

I mean, I know I'm no longer a baby, but I'll always be my mama's baby.

<3

Friend Index

2009-02-04T14:48:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna try to get caught up on my blogs.

Just cuzzzzz.

So for this blog I figured I'd do an ode to my friends, because whenever I need anything my friends are always there for me, and I'd be nothing without them.

And Yes, these are them in Alphabetical order, because I'm cheating and looking at my phone....Just in case I forget someone. lol

Abby (Work Abby...who is about 21 I think....)- A lot of my coworkers don't really like her, cuz she is kinda annoying and slow at times, and she started rumors and caused drama, but other than that, she is a fun person to be around, and she can put a smile on your face.

Adhi- She's my crazy Indian friend, who was friends with my grama before she even met me. (My grama use to clean her apartment, and then she moved) but she always knows what to do when someones in a sichiation. (situation)

Alex- She may be a stupid freshman (lol just kidding) and my ex boyfriend's new girlfriend, but I relate to her almost better than the rest of my friends. I mean when I first met her, we clicked and immediately became best friends, which is weird, considering teenagers and love and jealousy and stuff, but we've never let Connor get between us. She gives off an awesome energy that automatically makes you feel happy. Sure sometimes she can't shut her mouth but her randomness is awesome.

Allea- She was my bus buddy, and we were introduced when I was a sophomore and she was a freshman. She's easy to talk to and doesn't think I'm crazy. We could seriously sit in a room for 2 weeks and just talk the whole time, and not get bored of eachother. She finds the fun in everything and she's very artistic. And her last name is Lovely, which she is :]

Annabelle- My awesome Philapino<-----I'm sure i spelled that wrong------<<<< friend, who is super adorable. We aren't like, best best best friends, but we talk and stuff.

Aubrey- BYRNE 'N HELLER FOREVER! lol I've known her since 4th grade. I scared her at first, because I've always been a strange child. But we got past that stage and became really close. We've had our ups and downs but shes an amazing person. <3

Connor- He was my first ever boyfriend, (end of sophomore year) and of course he is no longer, and for a while, I isolated him and hated him. We eventually got over our differences and he is now my best friend. And I mean like I tell him EVERYTHING. I always found it easier to be friends with guys, just because I never ever got the sexual tension stuff, and I'm a tomboy and I relate easier to guys than girls. Rather than talking about shoes and makeup and boys I talk about music, video games, and food. I slip up sometimes and become a girl, but only briefly....ANYWAYS! Back to Connor. He is the easiest person to talk to, because when we were dating I started opening up a little bit, and he never judged me. I'm glad we aren't dating anymore because that awkward barrier is gone. He is now like a brother rather than an ex.

Ben- He's the new shift manager at Burger King and I call him my mom. He's very dark and morbid like me and we have similar interests. We tease eachother all the time, but never is it hateful. And he says I'm like the most honest person who works there.

Chris- He's insanezies. lol I use to hate him in middle school, but this year we started talking, and I guess we have alot of the same interests, and he's fun to talk to.

Christine- We've been friends since 7th grade, and she's so funny, I've honestly peed myself a few times while I hung out with her.

Clint- People ask me why I'm friends with him, because he's a douche, but I look past that. Sure he is an abusive asshole, but he's fun to hang with, and I can see the good side of him. And I help him with his problems. I just wished he would help out with mine, and I wish he wasn't a compulsive liar.

Dan- He was one of my best friends in 3rd or 4th grade. We lost contact when we started going to different schools, and I found him this past summer, and he is the exact same as he was when we were kids. He's crazy and funny.

Jacinda- She's my black counter part. I am salt and she is Pepper. She's fun to work with. :]

Jarvis (Danielle)- She can be a little narrow minded at times, but shes funny and wacky.

Jaymee-She's mean to me at work, but she and I are really good friends. She took me and my best friends under her wing when we were freshmens. Shes loveable and cuddley

Jen- I have been friends with her the longest out of anyone here. We've been best friends since kindergarten. Our parents started dating in 2nd grade. We moved in together in 5th grade. My mom and I moved out in 8th grade. We've had our moments. But I love her and still call her my sister. And I call her dad my dad, cuz he's the closest thing I've had to a father. We're always there for eachother. If we get pissed at eachother, we soon forget it and don't hold grudges.

Kayla- She was my best friend at work, and she knew what I was going through and she made sure I wasn't gonna do anything stupid like she did.

Kelly-We've also had our rough moments, but shes fun to be around and we rub off on eachother alot.

Lydia- She was my first friend at Burger King, and despite the hard times she's had, she doesn't go through life moping, but she is a bubbly person and very loveable.

Melissa- She is my partner in crime. She makes awesome espresso, she has amazing fashion, and we have a diabolical plan to take over the world. But for now we just bother Clint :D

Monami- She's my favorite exchange student. Her english is very good, and she's funny and insane and awesome. I'll be sad when she has to go back to Japan. T_T

Nick Vaske- We've been friends since freshman year. I had the biggest crush on him. I've gotten over that crush pretty fast. He can be bitchy sometimes, but only if someone pisses him off, but if he has a problem with someone, he goes to their faces and calls them out, rather than complaining and talking crap behind someone's back. I respect him for that.

Nick Wood- He's awesome. He has a very good view on life, and doesn't get shaken. He comes up with the best ideas for movies and books and stories and stuff. He's insane. In the good way :D

Becca- She is the coolest person ever. She's having many problems with her family right now, and she use to do drugs but she's gotten over them easily. My heart goes out to her for being a strong person. She is truely one of the strongest people I have ever met.

Shelbie- She and I always have fun. We have many common interests and she's an awesome friend. She consoles me when I'm down. We've drifted apart this past year, but we're getting back to where we were.

Shelby- She's been my best friend eversince 6th grade. We were both weird children, and people didn't get us or talk to us. We've never gotten a fight. We don't talk a lot, because she's in Tanager, but everytime we do talk, its the same as it was before. She and Connor are tied for my best friends, because I tell her everything. She's my sister. I love her. :]

Groundhog day was yesterday...

2009-02-03T06:20:00.000-08:00

I don't know what the verdict of that stupid rodent was.

I hope we get early spring.

But the sun was out.

So I'm pretty sure the stupid animal saw his shadow.

Errrr....

Why do we have the groundhog determine our weather?

WHYYYY?

What are groundhogs good for?

Besides sleeping in a hole?

NOTHING

They do nothing to help the world.

They don't help the blind like the dogs.

They aren't points like squirrels. (Running them over. SCORE!!!....Just kidding)

They aren't adorable like kittens and bunny rabbits.

They aren't goofy like monkies.

They aren't fun to watch like fishies.

THEY SHOULD GET A JOB!!!!

One that doesn't involve them becoming the weathermen.

Because honestly, groundhogs are lazy creatures who just want more sleep, so they screw over the humans and make us suffer for 6 more weeks.

When I was little, there was a groundhog down the street.

And on groundhog day, my mom would say, "I swear to god, if the sun is out and that f*cking animal sees it's shadow, I will shoot it so the bastard won't crawl back into its hole."

I don't think she had the guts.

Or a gun.

She did have a stun gun though....

Those can be very effective.

hmmm....

yeah....

That was my rant for the day.

SONG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My song of the moment is Speak Slow-Tegan and Sara

I'm a smidge behind on my bloggings

2009-01-28T14:12:00.000-08:00

AHHH SORRY MR. AYERS! >w<
I've been pretty preoccupied with work.
Which has made my grades sink.
Dramatically.
I'm not gonna make excuses.
I mean, I could've done homework on my break.
Or instead of coming home and watching tv.
Or instead of going to bed when I get home from work.
Or instead of chatting with my friends on the Interweb.

Bottom Line:
My grades suck

My mom gave me the final ultimatum.
Either put my ass in gear and get my grades up.
Or transfer to Jefferson.

I really like my school.
I love my friends.
My teachers are awesome.
And there are a lot more opportunities here than any other school in the district.

When I broke the news to my friends, they all said the same thing.
"Switching schools doesn't mean your grades will get better."

My mom has a valid point though.
I'll start over new.
And get back to my old amazing grades.

I don't know what's gonna happen.
I could easily just flunk and drop out and get my GED
But I don't want to do that.

I don't want to work at Burger King for the rest of my life.

Metro would almost be a better choice than Jefferson.
Just because I could easily fit my work schedule in with school work.
Mostly because they never give school work.

Erugh.
I really like Kennedy.
I know a lot of people say they hate this school, but I think its great.
I mean, sure I'm not involved in any outside activities.
But you don't have to have school spirit in order to love your school.

This is where my mom graduated.
This is where my friends are.
This is where I spend all of my time.
This is the school I want to learn.
This is the school I must graduate from.

I'm 37% Blonde

2009-01-08T06:19:00.000-08:00

hmmmm....

what to rant about for this post?

Surprisingly I am not in the ranty-ish mood.

Well some good news:

I have a new bestest friend.

Her name is Alex and she's a freshman at Xavier.

And she's Connor's new girlfriend.

And Connor is my ex.

No I am not going to attempt to break them up.

That's childish and stupid.

And besides I'm really good friends with both of them.

And since I know longer have feelings for Connor it would be pointless.

But yeah.

I think it makes Connor uncomfortable that I've gotten close with Alex.

Oh well.

lol

Sooooooo.....

OH!

Funny-ish story.

So about 3 weeks ago, I was at work, on a Saturday, and they let me off like an hour early, so I decided to drive to the mall, which I could've easily walked, but it was freakin cold so I was like, screw that.

Well after walking the mall for about half an hour, I went back out to my car, to find out I locked my keys in.

-_-

So I had to walk back to Burger King, and I asked my manager-slash-friend, Ben if he knew how to break into a car.

He sorta gave me a weird look and said, "No, that's Andy's expertise."

Sadly Andy wasn't working.

So Ben told me to call him.

There were 2 problems with that.

1. I didn't have Andy's number.

2. I locked my phone in my car.

So I had to call my mom from the BK phone.

Let's just say she wasn't a happy camper.

Cuz the freezing rain started.

And we live all the way by Westdale, and I work near Lindale.

So it took her like an hour and ten minutes to get there, and we had to call my grama, who had to call an emergency lock smith.

Let's just say my grama isn't a really hastey person.

So she called the lock smith, and my mom and I waited at the mall for 40 minutes, when the person finally arrived.

We tried to open my car for like 20 minutes.

And we found out that the woman wasn't the actual lock smith.

She was his wife.

He was busy making supper.

My mom and I were pretty pissed.

So we left my car at the mall, and my mom had to drive me to work in the morning.

They eventually got my car open, Sunday morning, and they only charged us the price for a weekday.

The entire time my mom was like, "I told you not to lock your doors in the winter."

I was like, "Well god forbid me try to be responsable."

But its over and done with.

The moral of the story is:

If you drive a car thats almost the same age as you, don't lock the doors in the winter...or ever...just risk getting your stuff be stolen. Because, honestly, who is gonna break into a '94 Buick Century?

Someone desperate.

Really desperate.

Like...A DESPERATE HOUSEWIFE!!!

....

Wow....that was lame....

I'm just gonna shut up now......

BUT NOT UNTIL I DO MY SONG OF THE MOMENTO!!!!!!!!!!!

So for this post, I actually have 2 songs.

Because both are equally amazing cover songs of songs I already love.

The first one is a cover of Since U Been Gone- A Day to Remember. (Originally Kelly Clarkson)

Connor sent me this one and I was like, "Dude, I hate you...thanks for getting me addicted to this song. I hope you fall off a cliff."

(That, of course my way of saying, awesome song. You have amazing taste in music.)

The second one is a cover of Cry Little Sister- Aiden (Originally Gerard McMann)

I've loved this song since I was a little tator-tot.

One of my favorite movies is The Lost Boys and I've been watching it since i was old enough to walk.

So thats my post for the day...

Yeah...

Lots to tell

2008-12-29T08:12:00.000-08:00

So lots of things to tell for this post.

Christmas was fun. I got lots of awesome gifts.
Like Guitar Hero, a DVD player, awesome movies, clothes, penguins, etc.
And my friend gave me her old guitar.
I named it Rhonda.
Its a red Squire electric guitar.
But my stocking.....oh boy...
Well quick backup story.
I've been collecting gift cards since I was 14, because for my 14th birthday I mostly got giftcards...which was like...50. So I kept them all. And ever since then whenever my mom or my grama or myself walked into a store, we would take gift cards (most stores don't care so its ok and its technically not shop lifting since we don't put cash on them)
I have over 1000 gift cards that I keep in a humongo binder, and I put them in baseball card sleeves...unless they are too big and weirdly shaped...then I just put them in the pockets.
Anyways back to my stocking.
They (as in my mom and grama) did this to me last year, but this year, they were able to fill 2 stockings............with gift cards..........individually wrapped....
-_-
I refused to open them.
But my mom and grama individually wrapped candy for eachother.
My mom took bite size mounds and wrapped them for my grama (and she had to wear gloves cuz she is super allegeric to chocolate...sucks I know, but luckly I'm not much of a chocolate cake person, so my birthdays were easy.)
And my grama took little Andes mints (the white chocolate kind) and wrapped those individually AND put a gagillion layers of tape on them.
Lets just say a bunch of cuss words were exchanged, in the funny kind of way.

That was Christmas Eve.
On Christmas, we went to my Aunt Kays, like we do every year.
And Let's just say I'm not really a big fan of my family.
By no means do I hate them.
I just hate how they treat eachother.
My family is the type where everyone has to make others feel down to make themselves feel better.
And I'm usually the target.
It gets emotionally draining because I have never done anything to them in any way.
My mom says its because they are jealous of me...which I think makes NO sense whatsoever.

Thanksgiving was horrible.
I had this cousin, who I think is 26, and I use to look up to her.
I mean, I met her when I was 14, because my mom disowned that side of the family for 8 years, and she reminded me of my favorite sister, Josie, who I hadn't seen for like 2 years.
So naturally, I respected her and liked her a lot.
Then the time came when my mom told her how I looked up to her. (Which was at easter, 2 years ago)
And I was sick, laying on my Aunts couch, when Mary (the cousin) sat next to me and started calling me names.
At first I thought it was fun.
But then it just got annoying.
But on Thanksgiving, she was trying her hardest to make me look like an idiot to the family (which her attempts were in vain)
I guess she kept coming up to my mom and calling me retarded and stuff, and my mom was like, Uh, she has a job, she pays for her car and cell phone, she has a license and she uses her money wisely.
And she really has no room to call me a retard.
She's the one who dropped out of college 1 term away from graduating, and her parents were paying her through (she was going to UNI)
And she lost her license
She works part time at a corner store
And she gave birth on her livingroom floor without even knowing she was pregnant.

So like a week later she texted me saying, "How are you doing miss Thanksgiving grump?"
That pissed me off so I didn't respond.
Then she texted me a few hours later saying, "Oh I see how you are Geeky Mcbruiser"
So I responded, "Please stop, I'm not in the mood."
She replies, "Oh shut the f*ck up, I'm not in the mood for you! Get the f*ck over yourself and stop being a stuck up b*tch. You aren't the only one with problems."
So I said, "Does it make you feel better to be putting down a 17-year-old? Do the world a favor and grow up."
Then she called my grama, tried to get me in trouble, but it didn't work.

So back to Christmas.
She came up to me and actually APOLOGIZED!
I was shocked.
I apologized too, but I'm not exactly sure what I apologized for.
So I guess we're good now.
OH
And my Aunt who is known to have a hatred for me actually came up and talked to me.
And when she talks and I'm there she doesn't look me in the eyes. She tries to pretend I'm not there.
But she was acting rather nice.
So my Christmas was awesome.

Song of the Moment: Strawberry Gashes- Jack Off Jill

I've been listening to them since 7th grade.
It's what you would call a gothic band.
But I like their sound.
They broke up a few years ago, but the lead singer is now the lead singer of a band called Scarling.
Their sound isn't as dark as Jack off Jill's but I still like it.

No I will not choose that song so stop pushing it.

2008-12-18T14:38:00.000-08:00

Time for another blog.

Since I really have nothing else to do at the moment.

Besides talking to my friend on AIM.

I asked him for blogging ideas.

He said Canada.

I said no.

And now he wants me to put my song of the moment as some funny song but the title is a smidge inappropriate.

And I don't really wanna forfeit my grade for that.

So my mom isn't letting me work tonight.

YAY

I wasn't really excited about working 6 days in a row.

I'd go insane.

Like I would seriously throw someone in the fry grease.

EXCITED FOR NO SCHOOL!

^_^

But who isn't?

I don't really mind making it up in the summer.

That way I won't have to drive in this crap.

Song of the moment: Blueside- Rooney.

GOD ITS FREAKING FREEZING!!!!

2008-12-17T06:12:00.000-08:00

WE DIDN'T GET OUT OF SCHOOL TODAY!!!!
*angry faces*

RRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

I had to stay at my dad's house last night because I had to work and he lives really close, and I live on the way other side of town so my mom didnt want me to get killed or anything.
But I had to come to school at like 6:30 cuz my sister has a 0 hour and she leaves the house at like 6:20, and we were just gonna carpool.

Erugh.

Sitting on your butt for an hour isnt the most fun you can have.

And now my fingers are freezing up.

Stupid Raynods.
-_-
Its a condition where the blood doesnt go through your fingers fast enough and you're always succeptible to frost bite.
It sucks.

:-/

So Christmas is coming up.
I got some presents for my friends.
But then I got broke, so I have to go out and buy more.
Eh...
I feel bad.
Because it doesn't seem like I tried that hard to get my friends presents.
I mean the ones I got from my friends so far were very thoughtful and I could feel the love.
lol.
But that makes the things I got for my friends look small and worthless.
And I don't have enough money to shower my friends with gifts.
Guilt.
Sigh.

It doesn't make sense for me to be getting Christmas presents anyway.
Cuz ironically enough, I'm an atheist.
lol.
Oh well.
It's the thought that counts.
Right?

Now to change the subject.
Kerina's Song of the Moment: Every You Every Me- Placebo.
I love this band.

I mean the lead singer has a very nasally high-pitched voice, but it works for them.
And he wears make-up.
A little creepy.
But its cool.
Some of their lyrics are dark, but you don't really notice it unless you pay close attention.
Some other good songs are Drag, Infra-Red, Meds, and Special K.

Fun Fun Fun.

hmm...

I don't think there's anything else to really talk about...
I'll just come back and edit.
:P

My bloggy-thingy

2008-12-10T06:06:00.000-08:00

So my blog is supposed to be about something specific that I'm interested in.
I still have no idea what to blog about.
I guess I could blog about my teenage angst.
There's alot of that going on lol.
I might blog about new music I listen to and new movies I see.
Kinda like a critic.
hmm...
Lets start with my angstness.

So yesterday my mom told me that she didn't want me to go to work because its on the way other side of town, and it was all snowy-like
I work at Burger King on Collins and I live in Summet View...which is a trailer park *cough* excuse me, MANUFACTURED HOUSING DISTRICT, near Westdale Mall, a few miles away from Fair Fax (sp?)
Anyways
I had to work at 5, and it was like, Noonish, and my Grama called and told my mom she was with a friend and that the roads weren't as bad as they were earlier that day, so my mom made me go to work.
I came up with a lot of excuses, like I don't have anti-lock breaks and it would be dark when I came home and I wasn't as experianced in the driving department as my Grama's friend, cuz I've only had my lisence for like 7 months.
But I quit my bitchin and went anyways.

So it was like 6:00 and I was on headset for drive-thru, and this guy came through and he wasn't the brightest crayon, and it sounded like he was illiterate. So he came to the window when he was done, and my friend/manager, Ben, collected the money for his order, and went to expodite it (put the food in bags), and while he was doing that I was getting drinks for the next cars and the guy started throwing rocks at the window, so I went over and opened the window, and he goes, "Do I know you?" and I was like, "Um...no?" and he asked if I went to Metro, and I said no and closed the window.
Then Ben gave me the order to hand out, so I gave the guy his food, and he asked, "Does your number come with it?" and I was like, no. And he drove off.
So I told Ben and he said next time they came through he would freak out and say, "STAY AWAY FROM MY GIRLFRIEND!"
hahahahah
And Ben's a big guy. Like, 6'2'' 200-250 pounds and he's 20.
This dude grabbed me by my ankle and hung me upside down, and told me to give him my lunch money.
Hahahah
He doesn't intimidate me though.
His girlfriend is one of my closest friends.
Yeah. That was work last night.

Hmm...
I guess I'll blog about all the music I'm listening to now.
Currently, I'm listening to Only When I sleep by the Corrs.
The Corrs are this awesome Irish family band consisting of 3 sisters and a brother.
They've been around since like the mid-'90s.
Their sound is very serene and calm, with a subtle Irish sound.
They use Bodhrans and Irish flutes but give it a sensual poppy twist.
I've been listening to them since I was 6 or 7.

Now I have no clue what to say.
I guess I'll come back later to edit.
PEACE!

I don't know, Nayners. What should I blog about?

2008-12-03T06:05:00.000-08:00

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Blllllllloooooooooooogggggggggggggggggggggg
What to write?????????????????????
Hmm...
Many things...
But not alot...
Erughhhhh.....
Eh...life is all thats coming to me right now....
So yeah...
hmm...
Grounded again.
Messy bedroom.
Not really that much of a deal, but my mom is OCD.
So it kinda sucks.
But its not really a punishment.
Its more of a 'fun-ishment' if you will.
She just likes to use the phrase, "You're grounded" alot.
But I don't complain.
Sure I go against my groundingment, so I guess I have no room to complain.
But I've never been much of a whiner when it comes to punishments.
Rawrrrrrrr
Tired.
Want to sleep
BADLY.
hmmm...
OH!
My best friend has been in Tanager for about 5 months now.
I miss her.
Something with her parents not wanting her so she's going through the independent living program.
Very sad.
She should be out soon.
I'm hoping.
I really hope she's grown more as an adult.
She's kinda stupid.
Not the the way that she isn't smart.
More so in the way that she doesn't know how to make good decisions.
Yeah...
So I love listening to music.
It's hard for me to be away from my iPod...which my friend is listening to right now
-_-
So I'm stuck listening to her old shuffle while she listens to my awesome new one.
>.<
Eh...oh well they have the same music on them
But I have attachment issues when it comes to my iPod.
I got it taken away in class yesterday and I went to pick it up after school but my teacher wasn't in his room and it was locked.
Let's just say I was a little pissed.
Ok, more like SUPERLY Pissed...
But whatever.
So I just got it back this morning.
AND I'M NOT THE ONE LISTENING TO IT!!!
Stupid Nayners...
lol
Just kidding.
She did my hair so I can't be bitter.
Well I think this should be the end of my random blog...
I seriously need some grub to make my tummy stop making funny noises.
-_-