1. First thing you wash in the shower? Hair
2. What color is your favorite hoodie? Pink Grey and Blue
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Nahhhh
4.Do you plan outfits? Nope
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? Bleh
6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red? My socks
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m? Aim.
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? I fell off an escalater...I have no Idea how....
9. Did you meet anybody new today? actually I did in the hall.
10. What are you craving right now? A Vanilla Bean Frappy
11. Do you floss? Its hard
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? gross
13. When was the last time you talked on aim? last weekend
14. Are you emotional? I can be
15. Would you dance to the taco song? the what song?
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000? yes
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? awkward answer, but the second one lol
18. Do you like your hair? I miss the crazy colors
19. Do you like yourself? Eh
20. Have you ever met a celebrity? Paul Revere from Paul Revere and the Raiders
21. Do you like cottage cheese? LOVE IT
22. What are you listening to right now? Undead by Hollywood Undead
23. How many countries have you visited? 3
24. Are your parents strict? So so
25. Would you go sky diving? HELL YEAH
26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? Only if he was paying
27. Would you throw potatoes at him? That would be the only reason I would go out to eat with him
28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in? Not really paying attention
29. Have you ever been in a castle? Many
30. Do you rent movies often? use to
31. Who sits in behind you in your math class? Aubrey
32. Have you made a prank phone call? hhahahahahahah yes
33. Do you own a gun? no
34. Can you count backwards from 74? yes
35. Who are you going to be with tonight? my coworkers
36. Brown or white eggs? i prefer brown ones but we get the white ones
37. Do you own something from Hot Topic? many things
38. Ever been on a train? yep
39. Ever been in love? I'll get back to you on that
40. Do you have a cell-phone? si
41. Are you too forgiving? usually
42. Do you use chap stick? Occasionally
43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow? I have no Idea
44. Can you use chop sticks? Si...er...i mean HAI
45. Ever have cream puffs? hate em
46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect? Love it
47. What was the last question you asked? How many blogs are we supposed to have?
48. What was the last CD you bought? Hold on Tight- Hey Monday
49. Boys or girls? depends on the circumstance. If you're referring to my preferrence I'd say boys. Just cuz we girls are manipulative Bitches.
50. What is your bus number for school? I drive
51. Is your hair curly? wavey
52. Last time you cried? hahahahaha 2 days ago when chris touched my arm lol I totally fake cried
53. Ever walked into a wall? when haven't I?
54. Do looks matter? They're important for impressions
55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun? yeah
56. Have you ever slapped someone? multiple times
57. Favorite time of the year? Fummer
58. Favorite color? Purple
59. Are you sarcastic? No not at all.
60. Do you have any tattoos? Nope
61. The last person you held hands with? Monami
62. Do you sleep with the TV on? Sometimes
63. Where was your default picture taken at? My bathroom
64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people? yeah
65. Do you like your life right now? eh
66. How often do you talk on the phone? everyday with my mom
67. What is your favorite animal? Penguin
68. What was the most recent thing you bought? A soda
69. Do you have good vision? Not really
70. Can you hula hoop? haha no
71. Could you ever forgive a cheater? never
72. Do you have a job? yep
73. Can you handle the truth? yes
74. What are you wearing? Clothes
75. Have you ever crawled through a window? I've crawled out of one

I like my coffee black just like my metal

I got me some new kicks.

They'se be hawwwt.

And I'm listening to.....

THIS!!!!!


Sweep the Leg: Karate Highschool.

My friend Shelby texts the Guitarist.

She randomly started talking to them on Myspace.

SPEAKING OF SHELBY!!!!!

Her birthday was yesterday.

I can't wait till she gets out of Tanager.

hmmmm....thats pretty much it.

AHHHHHHH

i totally got blogger.com on my phone.
its pretty bad ass.
i'm blogging from work now
WOOOOOOT

too lazy to format atm.

OHHHHHHHH
to totally distract you before you read the next post (unless you read it first and like to go in chronoligical order)
I FOUND THE MOST AMAZING JAPANESE DRAMA EVER!!!
Its called Hana Yori Dango.
I'd give you a brief summary, but I'm too lazy so I'll just come back and edit.
And give a link.
(notice how I didn't even change the font.)


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Here's the link:
http://www.mysoju.com/hana-yori-dango/

hmmmm...

I've been thinking a lot lately
Mostly about myself.
Now before you go and think that I'm thinking in a selfish sense, I'm not thinking about myself in a "the world revolves around me sense" or an "I'm so perfect, I can get anything I want sense" I've just been thinking about the kind of person I am.
What I've discovered is that my personality clashes with itself.

I'm different.
Everyone is.
But I mean like different different different.

On the surface I seem like a crazy wacky annoying person. Which most of the time I am.

But underneith it all, I'm actually a dark person.

I like to make it seem as though I'm an optimist.

But I'm more of a pessimistic realist.

I like to be realistic with things, but I always think its just gonna go all to hell.

I don't really see a glass as being half empty or half full. I see it more as a glass 3/4 empty.

I'm very hypocritical.

When my friend has a problem, I try to make them see the upside on things.

If someone is having bad relationship issues, I like to make them think they're lucky they didn't lose a limb.

Some of my friends think that when something goes bad that there is nothing they can do.

But like my friend Becca says, there are people who have worse problems than angst or relationship issues or parent issues.

There are some people who have to lie in a hospital bed for the rest of their lives with an uncurrable disease that is slowly eating the inside of their body.

Those people are the most optimistic people ever.

The terminally ill don't like to pay attention to their dying-ness. They really don't want to think about death. But they know its coming.

They live life to its fullest.

So why can't we, those who don't have as much to lose, do that?

We have everything in our reach and we can acheive anything we want if we try hard enough.
So why do we fail?

A few weeks ago, Connor asked me why he can't do anything right.

We had this long, deep conversation, and everytime I would say something, he would totally just blow it off and say, "It doesn't matter."

I was sooo pissed.

Its kinda like, why ask if you aren't gonna listen to what I say?

I'm a writer.

I can word things on paper in a way I can't word them out loud.

Good thing we were texting.

Its harder to express your feelings on paper, but for some reason it just comes naturally to me.

When he asked why he always fails, I told him it was because he's weak.

He sees failure as an inevitability.

He wants to fail.

When something goes shitty in his life, he just gives up.

He has no passion.

No drive.

And he doesn't like to listen to me.

Eventhough he knew I was right.

He's always bitching about how he has no friends and everyone hates him. And how most of his friends treat him like crap.

I told him maybe he should grow a backbone and start to stick up for himself.

But then he said he was afraid all his friends would hate him.

I was like, "DUDE! If you start to stick up for yourself, you're friends will either respect you, or hate you. And the ones who hate you are the ones that you shouldn't even be wasting your time with. Stop letting me, your girlfriend, and the rest of your friends walk all over you. If you aren't willing to change, then stop complaining and deal. If you're life is as bad as you think it is, you should probably change it, but since you aren't willing to change it, then you have no room to bitch."

Thats when I realized.

I do the same exact thing.

When something goes wrong in my life, I just try to run away from it and all I do is bitch to my friends. I never take action.

I mean, the whole weakness thing is kinda how I am.

I mean if my friend is bothering me I really don't say anything and I just vent to my other friends about it.
Which means I talk shit behind their back.
I don't have the guts to confront them.

But I'm not afraid of being hated.
Sure I like to get along with everyone, cuz I freakin hate drama, but if someone has a problem with me, I'm not about to get into a fight with them.
Its all a matter of opinion.
If someone doesn't like me, I'm not gonna change myself just to get them to like me.
I like who I am....well sorta.

I'm a bubbley person who likes to talk to people.
But I'm one of the most shy people you will ever meet.
I love being around my friends.
But my idea of a nice weekend involves me, a cupboard full of food, a remote, and a bed.
I'm afraid of being alone
But I find being alone is being one of the most comfortable states of mind.
I have a wacky sense of style
But I'm a very conservative person.
It may seem like I have the courage
But I'm one of the biggest chickens.

I may seem like a happy person, but its all an act.
The truth is........
I've been fighting depression all my life.
It's one of those things I'm not really open about for discussion.
No I don't take pills, although I probably should.
My mom is a very depressed person and actually should be going through theropy.
But we can't afford it.
And we don't have the time.
My mom and I both have those days (frequently) where all we want to do is just lay in bed and cry.
Its normally quiet around my house during the weekends.

I'm a Scorpio.
The description of my sign fits me to a T.
It pretty much says we try to help others before we help ourselves.
Which is what I try to do.
We take on other peoples emotions and try to resolve their issues, even if we have our own issues to settle.
It's hard for us to be happy.
We try to save the world (in a sense) which takes a lot of compromise.

I know what kind of person I am.
I don't know if I'm a good person or a bad person.
I'm just me.

ALL HAIL THE MAGICAL CRUICIFRY!!!!!

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STAB!!!!!

Yeah I walked into work last night, and sneaked to the break room so I could talk to my friend Andy cuz he told me something, and before I left I saw this and was like OMGIZZLE!

So I had to take a photo of it.

Yesterday was a crappy day however.

I was late to my ortho, cuz I got lost.

I was sitting in the stupid laying down chair thing.

Breathing in the Rubber glove/minty/fear/dispair/death smell.

Waiting an hour.

Anxious cuz I want these mother effing things off!!!!

I mean, come on, its been 3 and a half years now!

AKLFGHALDFHFKGJADHLFHALGUIHJAFGJKLD

Then the orthodontist person dude thing (who is also a creeper) came over and said, "We're gonna get these off."

In my mind i go WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

The funny thing is, my appointment to get them off is...April First.

I swear to god if this is a joke theres gonna be one less orthodontist in Cedar Rapids.

But the funny thing is my mom loses her job that day as well.

She was one of the lucky 200 at yellow book.

I really hope she gets the job she wants.

:-/

Jess was one lucky bee-otch

So I came into work on Saturday, bout ready to work my 9-5 shift, like I always do.
I was excited for my break cuz I would get to see my friend Kelly, cuz she needed to borrow a book.
And on my breaks I usually just sit in my car and listen to music.
So I was excited to actually be doing something.
10 o'clock comes around, and we get busier than holy hell.
And the OER comes in....

Long story short, no one got a break.
They stayed till about 3:00
And we were busy for the entire day.
And I felt like a Cinderella.
Kerina, do this.
Kerina, do that.
Kerina don't blah blah blah
Kerina, tie your shoes.
Blah blah freakin blah.

And Jessica, one of the Managers was on Whopper board, and she cut her finger on the microwave.

The lucky bitch got to wait in the ER for 3 hours.

God I wish I stuck my hand in the Fryer.........

Finals

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that is all.